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what the hell should i talk about here.

I feel like there is so much going on yet I dont even know how to sum it all up.

So... I havent been dating and I am for the most part cool with that.

I have some male friends and I am kinda like a wing man for them. I always just assumed that maybe these guys just didnt dabble around with black girls and therefore were just not that into me, so I look at them like girlfriends (with an extra member)

until recently, one of them kissed me and now I am all confused trying to figure out if I like him that way or if I am just scared if I dont like him that way, that we cant hang out anymore. But the day after he kissed me he went to Iraq so I guess I dont have to worry about it, except that he has not emailed me since he has been gone and other members of his company have been emailing so I think things have already gotten weird even though he's not here.

I feel like an ass, like I led him on or something. Now he's gone to this dangerous place and he might not ever come back and I cant even really talk to him about it. Nothing I can really do here just wanted to vent I guess.

(sigh)